So if you’ve read My Story, you have a little bit of background into my eating habits. Over the last few years, I’ve tried to modify my eating habits a little bit, if not to incorporate more foods, then at least to try to eat smaller proportions, or prepare my food in healthier ways. Despite what some of you may think, I’m not on a mission to head to an early grave. If I could wake up and magically have a healthier diet, I would.
The idea for this blog began a little over a month ago, after my boss asked me to create a website to learn how to use Squarespace. I've been toying around with creating something like this for a little while now, after my cousin suggested last summer that I become a blogger. She thought I'd be a good one, since I have a background in education, I like writing, and I have a witty personality. We talked about maybe doing a plus size fashion blog, or something of that nature, but what I really wanted to talk about were my eating habits. So after working on this for a few weeks, I decided I wanted to make it a real, working website that is an educational tool for others and a self-reflection tool for myself .
Many people in my life are familiar with the way I eat, but some may be reading this and have no idea. Others who stumble upon this may need an education about what selective eating disorders are, while others just want to identify with someone like themselves. In addition to those, I wanted it to be a method for me to be accountable for the changes I'm trying to make in my life. To be clear, I am not dieting. I will still eat cake (in fact, I ate an Easter Little Debbie last night), and I will not give up ice cream or french fries. I am simply making an effort to incorporate what has been missing from my diet for 32 years: healthy food. I am calling this a lifestyle change.
I was just talking with my stepmom not long ago, and she was in disbelief when I told her that, up until the age of 12 or so, I ate fried food EVERY DAY, in addition to chips, processed meats, peanut butter, and grilled cheese sandwiches (although those were not every day). I still LOVE french fries! I would say I eat them a couple times a week, but I usually make a smaller portion, and from real potatoes that I bake at home, using olive oil and a blend of spices. I eat a lot of baked potatoes, too, with either just cheese or butter. A few years ago, I discovered that I really like sweet potato fries, which I usually bake with a little olive oil, honey, cinnamon, and salt. I also started buying fajita style grilled chicken from the frozen section of the store, instead of breaded chicken nuggets.
Monday of last week was an awful day, food wise. I’m at a new job that involves a lot of sitting at a desk (quite different from teaching), and I just needed to get out of the office for a change of scenery. While I could have just gone to walk around at Target, as I sometimes do, I drove to Sonic and ordered tater tots, mozzarella sticks, and popcorn chicken. I called my sister and talked to her, and I rolled down the window to enjoy the pretty weather while I listened to music and ate my food. I suppose I should have felt guilty about the kind of food I ordered, but I didn’t. It was freakin’ good! I only wish I’d ordered a chocolate peanut shake to go with it.
I began working on this website a little over a month ago, so I already knew in my mind that I wanted to start eating healthier. I’ve been mentally preparing myself for this, buying frozen vegetables and pinning recipes I want to try, and also setting my alarm each morning to get up and go for a walk. I will admit that I have not tried cooking any of these recipes yet, but I've found a nice nature preserve in my neighborhood, so I've been going on beautiful, scenic walks at least three times a week.
I guess I’m rambling about all this because I know eating differently is going to be a difficult process for me. My “french fry diet” has been my way of life for over 30 years now, and on top of having a very real eating disorder, I know that I’ve also conditioned my body to crave these kinds of foods. There’s a huge mental aspect to approaching all of this, too. I know I’ve got to quit making excuses for myself, whether it’s about exercising or just simply trying something new, even if I don’t like it.
I’ve started the ball rolling on exercising, even if it’s a slow moving one. My next step is going to be trying a new food. I plan to take ONE vegetable that I’d like to try, as Steve the Fitness Nerd suggests, and try to “like” it before moving on to another one.
Come back and read my next blog to find out how it goes!